on love

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~ on love, roles and learning ~

there are two ways to learn. the first way is through trial and error. most of society grows up through this way. we draw on the walls, we get a smack. we realise that when we draw on the walls, we get a smack, and so we don't draw on the walls any more. schools also teach us in this way. if we hand in our work late, then these are the consequences. we get punishment. if we hand in our work on time, and answer all the questions that the teachers want to hear, then we are rewarded. we want to make the choice that has the the most comfortable outcome for us. the path of least resistance. and if we don't, we learn.

the other way to learn, is to know it all already.

like baking. i can either learn how to make a cake through trial and error, checking out recipes (which were also made from trial and error) or i can know intrinsically about the role of each ingredient.

not only do we learn to learn through trial and error, but we learn to teach through this method as well. if the dog does not do what we want it to do, then we punish it. the dog learns through this method.

and yet another way would be to really learn the role of each ingredient and know that we are all ingredients and all have our roles. and get a sense of the whole.

what is a dog? a dog is life/spirit/god peering out through a dog filter. a squirrel is life/spirit/god peering out through a squirrel filter. and so a dog just is.
a dog dogs. a squirrel squirrels. they naturally fall into their roles with great ease.

and the purpose of the squirrel's role is where, (by being it's most natural expression) it benefits the whole. in it's life it climbs trees, picks nuts, buries them, gets hunted by other creatures etc. and so it's role is to plant seeds and to feed others.

a vulture's role is to clean up the savannah. the worms role is to create delicious compost and air-rate the ground.

so what is our role?
to find out what is the most natural thing for us to do. what is the most intrinsic expression of our true selves.. of humanity. what do we do most naturally when there is complete balance within us?
we love.
this is our role.
this is our purpose in life.
this is what we do most naturally when our environment supports us to fall into our deepest truth.

and what purpose does love have?
it is the creative energy of the universe
we create energy.

this energy, in it's purest form, is chanelled as inspiration and creative energy into deep connections of oneness, connection to source, balance in nature, and the free-flow expression of beingness.
when our environment supports us to flow freely in this love, we radiate and heal those around us.
when we are in a space of love, with our hearts fully open, we don't need anything else. we don't need material objects. we don't need recognition. we don't need external validation or money.. and in this space we are sensitive to all that is, each energy, and the purpose of each role.
if we've experienced circumstances in which our open hearts were not fully accepted, or we partly closed our hearts for some reason, through fear, self-judgement, etc (another example may be fear of misinterpretation - if we love completely, other people may get scared of this, misinterpret us, or push us away) and yet our hearts are still slightly open, we are inspired and find ease in chanelling this love into creating beauty, song, dance, art, poetry.. a way to express this love energy.. and yet still there's a little part in us which is still not completely flowing and in full truth. we are closer than most though.

so to sum up: there are three ways of being, of experiencing our hearts.
fully open heart experience - loving completely, coming into balance with self, into truth, into harmony with all that is, spirit flowing through us, in us around us, in perfect timing and dance. here with the awareness of all the creatures and beings and their roles, and so we are able to live fully supported by all that is around us.
half open heart - where our heart is open, and yet there is still fear and not allowing it to flow totally out of us in natural ways.. in case of misinterpretation. and so we find other ways to chanel this love energy - through dance, movement, art, song etc
closed / "deformed" heart - heart not functioning in full flow, from previous experience of abuse etc. the frustration of this manifesting in experience of separation - so we do things with no awareness.. build buildings on wetland areas, abuse the earth.

what happened that we have forgotten our roles to love?

why are our hearts not fully open all the time?
i believe it started out as a misunderstanding.
there are opposites to everything. where there is love, there is no-love. where there is manifest, there is unmanifest.
the polarity to love is not hate or any other emotion/feeling/experience. it is no love.

and somewhere along the line, there was a misunderstanding.
maybe someone had stubbed their toe, and so felt in pain and angry and quiet. and so another person mis-interpreted this. maybe they took this thing personally. and when they expressed love, the other person didn't respond in a loving way. and a little part of their heart may have closed. (learning through trial and error)
a friend of theirs may have come up and felt this heart-closing of their friend and may have taken that personally. maybe. and so it perpetuated a series of heart-closing situations. and all being misunderstood. maybe.

(in this space, instead of just being aware of me, i am aware of you and your awareness of me. and i am constantly gauging your response for where i can be that will be accepted and loved. and i spend much energy invested in this dance of what you and society perceive to be acceptable or unacceptable. and through this comes much self-judgment if i get it wrong. as i am not being in my deepest truth of being, but rather pretending how i believe i should be.)

and so this energy of misunderstanding, taking things personally, and closing of hearts got bigger and was more invested in. as human's we started pretending things should be a certain way. because we were shouted at when we licked our plates clean, we learn to shout at our children for doing this.

and so this energy, that we have in our bodies, if our hearts are even more closed, instead of being love energy which is inspired, creative and emitting of beauty, it is coming from blocked heart chanels, and so is coming out into the world in ugly expressions. we start digging holes and making big scars on mother earth to get energy from coal to power big ugly trains to transport ugly building materials, to make ugly buildings with material that was stolen from the earth without awareness.

and because things dont flow so easily (because we are unaware of the roles we and other expressions of life play) we learn and teach through trial and error and want to control and force a flow that is not the natural way.

the energy that is then emitted into the atmostphere is trapped in ugliness and is heating up the planet.
and here we will learn through trial and error. and yet it didn't necessarily have to be this way.

often we spend many years of our life blind and searching for happiness.. and happiness i believe being a space in which we are in our truth.. when we have come home to ourselves in our true being and allow ourselve to love without fear. for example, after many years we finally figure out that what we really love is painting.. this is where our love energy was able to be expressed most profoundly. and yet we studied law because our parents wanted to study law, because that's the way to play into the illusion and facade of society. the false satisfaction of being recognised, of making lots of money, of playing this game because everyone else is playing it.

how the planet is, how people are, how society is at the moment is not natural. it may have occurred naturally given the circumstances, but it is not the natural way of being.
if i start scratching my leg, and continue scratching, i will eventually scratch through the skin and it will bleed. this consequence is a natural result given the circumstance, but what made me start scratching in the first place was the imbalance.. i may be feeling anxious, angry, frustrated.. my heart was not fully open.

and yet if we release control, and fall back into that space of knowing the role of each animal/plant/life/elemental being, and coming back into harmony with the planet, then all life will support each other and itself. and we will have no need to control any more. controlling is not our purpose. it's what's come out of the imbalance.